All The Same It Seems

Silence in the mind

As without

So profound

All the same it seems

Cold or warm

It never bites

Light or darkness

All the same it seems

Time passing by

The same as yesterday

The same as tomorrow

All the same it seems

Room or street

The mind’s as naked

And as veiled

All the same it seems.

Silken knots

Slipping and slithering

Unraveling slowly

To show the past and future

Mingled with a drunken stupor.

Hazy and cloudy,

All the same it seems.

Now it’s there

N now it isn’t

What’s real, what’s fake.

All the same it seems.

~k~

....

Opened my eyes,

After a troubled sleep,

Full of nightmares, ghosts, crashes and blood

Felt around, thought you were with me,

Wanted to cuddle myself in your arms,

And feel safe, away from fear.

Not finding you there, I remembered,

You had walked out that day,

Leaving me alone,

With my tarnished ego.

I picked up my new companion,

The bottle of rum, kept right beside me on the bed.

Took a sip and lit a cigarette,

My day began, with intoxication,

As before,

Just this time,

Not induced by you.

~k~

Terror

Thunder, rain and lightning,
crackling twigs
rushing feet
A thud, a groan
Dragging footsteps,
Sobbing lips.
A loud snap,
Scream.
No thunder, no rain, no lightning.
Silence.

~k~

When I miss you

When I miss you,
no one can love you more than me,
when you bump into me one day,
you wouldn't see  anyone looking at you,
the way I do.


I remember when you said you loved my eyes,
you kissed them and hugged me tight.


You used to tell me not to look at you,
the way I did,
because you were afraid you'll fall in love with me.


All of a sudden you jerked my hand away,
and vanished out of my life.
No reason,
not a word,
you walked away without as much as a glance backward...


Now that you're gone,
I hate you so much that not even God could make 
me love you again...


But then,
When I miss you,
No one can love you more than I do.


Leaves me confused
time and again,
with no answer
just a void,
which I know won't fill again...


~k~